Saturday, May 3, 2014

What's the bloody point?

The last entry in Kenneth Williams' voluminous diaries is a one line entry for 15th April 1988. It reads simply:

Oh, what's the bloody point?

Within hour of writing this Williams was dead from an overdose of barbiturates, probably administered accidentally.

His diary had ended, and so has mine. For now.

Blogging has been a large part of my life for the past nine years. It has covered subjects ranging from mental health to IT to my musical work to my journey of faith. There has even been the odd recipe. Some of my writing has sparked great discussion - one post has 402 comments. There have been controversies. There have also been great meetings of minds. But there has always been freedom to discuss the things that matter.

Earlier this week I deleted a blog post because I felt under pressure to do so. It was the first time I had ever removed an article from this blog. The repercussions of this have been that I can no longer write about my personal faith in this blog or anywhere else.

Freedom is not all encompassing. Rudolf Steiner pointed out in his Philiosophy of Freedom that our ability to act freely probably lies only within our own thoughts. Everything else is subject to social norms, expectations of others, the law and cultural frameworks. So for now my thoughts must stay within my own head. My faith will remain a personal matter. Unresolved and unexpressed.

For now this blog has ended. It may return in some form in the future.

I would like to thank all of the people who have read and commented on my writings over the past nine years. Your companionship has been an important part of my life.  Until we meet again May God bless you all.



  1. I will miss your blog - it is on an RSS feed I regularly check. I tend to lurk silently on blogs unless I can add something significant or someone says something I consider stupid - which you did not.

    I benefited from you notes on Linux.

    But mostly I enjoyed your philosophical and theological explorations. Your methodology is similar to mine.

    I was heartened by your return to faith and amused by your recent "ordination" spoof - which made me think about the Apostolic Succession.


  2. Sorry sorry to read about this, Gordon. I came across your blog last year while researching my upcoming trip to Scotland. I have enjoyed reading your entries, especially your theological views. I wish you well.

  3. Gordon,
    Due to moving home on the Island. For the last five weeks or so, I have had absolutely no internet access, apart from visiting the local library (and that was chronic!) So I haven't been able to comment on your "return to faith" as you call it. (I wonder how you would cope without internet for that long?!!!)
    The Bible teaches that Jesus will lose none that the Father gives Him, John 10.29. Yes there are many false converts, but remember repentance is a gift from God Acts 11.18, Ephesians 2.8-10 etc.
    But this IS what the great controversy in the Church is about? Pre-destination/Election vs Freewill aka Calvinism vs Arminianism: If man has freewill then it robs God of His sovereignty, in other words man believes it is his faith that saves him not God, so therefore he can chose to walk away from God.
    Many find this difficult to accept.
    May God bless your Bible studies.

    Hope you post again soon.

  4. Thank you all for your comments. I am not ruling out a return to blogging so stay tuned. I just think it may have to be done differently or wait until I am more of a free agent again.

  5. Well, after a break I have decided to restart blogging, although it is going to be slightly different. You can see my update here